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I Thought I Never Waited

I Thought I Never Waited

I thought I never waited,
but now I realize—I have been waiting

At first, it was nothing special,
but now, at this point
where we may never meet again,
it burns 

Turns out, oh turns out—
this is stronger than I thought
Built on the strongest steel,
stronger than vibranium, they say

It hurts. It really hurts
Fingers ache to type,
lips crave to speak,
mind keeps pushing and pulling,
heart trembles restlessly

All because of you—you!
Everything...
unease, anxiety, doubt
If only you felt what I feel,
but I don’t know

The first
The first time...
the heaviest matter of the heart I have ever felt
You
I hope you feel the same,
and I hope your courage surpasses mine—
to confess, to claim,
to make me yours

Bacl when my friends say:
"All men are the same"
"All like pigs"
you have always been the exception





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