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Drift

Drift People come and go, at least one of them stays longer, a little longer... I'm not a harbor you can visit to fill with the number of lives, I'm not a rest area you can stop by for a night, to sleep, to refresh your mind, when you're on a long journey, when the winter storm hits. I'm the dark moon who needs the sun to help me brighten the earth. Together—forever— watching lives come and go, watching souls fill and fly.

"We Were Just Strangers Who Understood Each Other" – And isn’t that the rarest thing?

"We Were Just Strangers Who Understood Each Other" – And isn’t that the rarest thing? Just like accidents, but it never felt like that, not when you said those words and knew we weren’t just talking- you got it, didn’t you? Strangers, we are but when i stare closely, touch deeply There's something I didn’t even know I was missing Brown sharp sight lense like warm living room in cabin hid deep in the woods, and me, with my pink walls built so high so tough by tears and blood But there was something about the way It all crumble, without i even noticing None stars predict it, yet here, sitting next to me, as if it supposed to be There's no theory, No need fight for understanding It just how is it Weird isn’t it? And isn’t that the rarest thing? find this type of genuine bond, in this rot-brain world?

I Thought I Never Waited

I Thought I Never Waited I thought I never waited, but now I realize—I have been waiting At first, it was nothing special, but now, at this point where we may never meet again, it burns  Turns out, oh turns out— this is stronger than I thought Built on the strongest steel, stronger than vibranium, they say It hurts. It really hurts Fingers ache to type, lips crave to speak, mind keeps pushing and pulling, heart trembles restlessly All because of you—you! Everything... unease, anxiety, doubt If only you felt what I feel, but I don’t know The first The first time... the heaviest matter of the heart I have ever felt You I hope you feel the same, and I hope your courage surpasses mine— to confess, to claim, to make me yours Bacl when my friends say: "All men are the same" "All like pigs" you have always been the exception

Maybe

Maybe You are the only man who made me believe, made me feel free Because I understand you, and you understand me We complete each other I even wonder why we are still just friends We are the same, alike in every way It’s hard to think of anything I love without finding traces of you in it You are everywhere— in my heart, my mind, maybe even my body (Okay, I sound dramatic.) I swear, it hurts— it hurts so much And I am afraid Will I ever find a piece of myself like you again? I have let you go before, but I hope this time, we are braver. Make me yours! I always told them: "I would never let a man interfere with my journey of growing up" But deep down, I know— if that man is you, everything will be fine Maybe even better

The Life That Died Before It Lived

The Life That Died Before It Lived You were never here And yet, I feel you everywhere. Like a ghost pressing against my ribs, like a breath I keep holding, like a name caught at the edge of my tongue that no one will ever hear Somewhere, there is a cabin we never stepped inside, where dust settles on a bed we never shared, where the windows watch the seasons change, but no one is there to see them The river still runs The trees still stand The world goes on, untouched by the absence of us Somewhere, there is a wedding that never happened. A song that plays for no one. No hands to hold, no whispered vows, no trembling voices saying forever. Somewhere, there is a girl in a white dress, standing in an empty room, waiting for a door to open, for someone who will never come. Somewhere, there is a life where we meet. Where I know the warmth of your hands, the weight of your head on my shoulder, the sound of your voice when you are not pixels on a screen. A life where I don’t have to imagine ...

The Places We Never Went

The Places We Never Went I see you in the places we never went, in cabins we never lived in, in rivers that never knew our names You exist in all the things we almost had Somewhere, there is a cabin with a barn, the one you showed me, where chickens should be pecking at the dirt, where the river should be cold against your hands in the morning, where breakfast should be waiting when you come back inside but no one lives there No one fishes in that river. No one wakes up in that bed tangled in warmth, because I never chose that life with you Somewhere, there is a song playing on an old radio, Everywhere by Fleetwood Mac, but no one is dancing to it in the living room, bare feet against wooden floors, no one is laughing when the record skips. There is no wedding, no slow dance, just a song stuck in time, like us. I still reach for my phone, still scroll past cabins for sale in Montana, still pause at every mention of your favorite movie, as if I’ll find you there, as if you’ll turn aroun...

Wherever you go

Wherever you go if you leave, take me with you- fold me into your pocket, let me live in the warmth of your palm i don’t need much, just the sound of your breath, the weight of your steps, the way you speak like the stars  are something you can reach  i would be quiet, i would not ask for more- only to exist where you exist, to belong to the space between your heartbeat and the wind so take me wherever you go, let me stay, let me stay.

Starving

Starving   love is craving, It is teeth sinking into flesh, red bloom it is hunger that never quiets you don’t understand— i don’t want to hold you, i want to split you open, taste your trembling, lick the salt from your ribs and make a home inside your chest. if love is gentle, then i do not love i want you raw, want you broken, want your breath hitching under my palms as i carve my name into your bones want you scream my name as i suck you dry

Trapped in you

TRAPPED IN YOU You sweetened me, sank into my soul, read me like a prophecy I hate this. I hate you. I was there— when you said you needed me, when my world was burning, I made time, carved it from my own bones, and handed it to you like an offering. You swore you'd always be here. No matter what. No matter what the fuck. But here I am, talking to ghosts, watching you spoil the only thing you ever truly loved— your own damn ego. You spoke of effort, as if effort is a word you understand, as if the weight of my waiting isn’t breaking my spine. You wondered if you were enough. Yes, sir. Yes. You are not. I am not too much— you are too little. You ranted, and I listened. I held my tongue, swallowed my needs. You never did the same. You were mean—sharp-edged, careless. I hope your fingers burn, a slow, cruel sting if you ever type other name while ignoring mine. And I hope you tell me, whine to me about the pain, so I can say, good. Was that love? Or just comfort? Did I mistake patienc...

Streak

Spend an hour... two hour... later....  Never bored to each other  you got topic i got another  each minute full of funny pict   You happy, it's christmast day  Glad to you, not me, it's not my day  you tell everything that you got randomly wanna be a grinch who stole my heart   Far away, no excuse told me your dream  "i want to make circus"  Diana, you came with the name nervous... sweat around...    "your girlfriend?" nervous... sweet around.. . " "no, my anagram name"  "oh by the way, i still serious about come to your house as a Grinch"   I don't know what to say ... your jokes make me hang in the sky

The Grinch

In the Christmas night's enchanting glow, A guy appeared, with a charming glow. Deja Vu hit me, an actor of love movies, With mischief in his eyes, a sparkle in disguise. The smile was astonishing as if god special art, By each snap streak, he won my heart. Played the role of a Grinch, mischievous and sly, Planned stole something in me, I give it free anyway Sang a prank song... a melody sweet, His voice... like magic... made my heart skip a beat. The Grinch turned romantic, real creature now revealed, Every stolen smile, The love was sealed. In the realm of fake Grinch, Stolen something strange, not a happiness but turn to be.. The Grinch who stole my heart,

Nowhere Lake

  The sun was setting, but not yet dark Through clouds of grey, it cast a spark The water flowed and screeched, with little waves that splashed I put my hand in, merged with water, felt a flash I could see you, I could feel you In the realm beyond They said no human had the power To cross the world you're on They said that nature had the vision To sense the other side So I want to become like the nature I let myself subside Merged myself into the water,  buried half my body into the rough sand Soaked myself into the mud,  climbed the peak because watch griev to the land All I did All I do Because I can't see you As you can see me

The beach

Beach reach a bitch As strong wave inject right to the heart I know it I let it Here.. The beach reach my Ground As touch my barefoot It get harder everytime I step down  Three Two  One Try and try and try Then he get me

Worn out hoe

You reach me Again With simple word But ton of hopes  You dig the red soil From the deep down It's easy cause you make the tomb Pretend it's not a purpose But you did it with hard doze Here I am  Watching sun sinking Alone  without you beside me I can't stay here even my heart told me I belong here I have not to go I must go Before night crave me just like black my favorite  Then goddes wave me Like now with her army wave Before you reach me and fix it I can't stand it So I have to go I must go Horse white gonna miss me He gonna feel it  It like when you leave me

Tea trees

The tea trees sways, whispers shadow secrets,  thee only thee... As i let myself sink  among the greens, leaves kiss my skin. as the wind sweeps , breathe... think.. thee only thee...

Take me and Leave me

Take me and leave me Go away with child giggling  Leave me Go away take her hand Leave me Among the dirty crowd Behind shopping catalogue Next to big pillar held big bag In the water coldness 

Those deep brown eyes

Those deep brown eyes, full of life, as diamond beneath sunlight. Those deep brown eyes, full of wonder, Seduce mind to think it the eighth-world wonder. Those deep brown eyes, full of love, As if my heart floating above. here's to you, my faith, my soul, Those deep brown eyes, you make me whole.

Forbidden x Uncountable

The glimpse of heaven Adore to death Just see, And didn't think any else What happen to the earth I'm Lucky The fortune in me Especially my eyes The glimpe of him Someone forbidden  Now it allowed to Yet untouchable .... wait for earth trap us then

Secret Code

I touch the ink pen in my hand  Drawing vertical and horizontal lines  as I daydream  Numbers and letters are made guardians  For something I deny will not happen   123π is not clear, right?  Maybe it's just a scratch? But no,   I deliberately carved that code   So that it can be a door   To make him feel   So that we can be together   Even though it started with    a secret code

Hey Future?

 Hey me in the future? neither it's spirit that fly leave the body on the soil or spirit in body that i always hate neither get bored in this city or in white house near to forest with lake on the backyard neither living alone loving myself or walking around Barcelona with love of my life Do i happy? i hope so! i'm fighting for You right know, for better life with my love of my life to spend our morning drinking coffee, clingy to each other with our pretty curl baby